Lately I've been pretty lost. Unsure of what to do about a number of situations in my life. And even more, I've been thinking about what I want. I don't mean the petty things. I mean, REALLY, want. I'll let you in on a little secret...
I want to be a wife.
Yep. You read that right. I want to be a wife. Not because my sister got married recently (which was beautiful and is also a great example of a happy, healthy relationship) but because I sincerely want to be a wife to a husband. I want to be a someone to a someone. I want to be his companion and his best friend. I want to buy a house--Okay let's be real, rent an apartment-- and fill the home with love and happiness. And I want to make him a great meal that he can come home to. I want to have talks with him and I want to watch movies with him.
I want to follow him in every decision in life and he his strongest supporter.
And I want him to tell me every single day how beautiful I am and how much he loves me. Not because I want to hear it, but because he can't help but tell me. I want to live day by day knowing that my husband is the only man for me, aside from God. And I want my husband to cherish the time he has with me as much as I will cherish the time I have with him. I want him to know what he has when he looks at me.
I want to be a wife people!
Maybe I'm crazy and setting my expectations too high. But I know that I want to be loved deeper than the ocean. I also have a lot of love to give, and I want to use it!
So. If you're reading this, don't hesitate to propose! I'm just hangin around.
But in the meantime, I suppose I'll just write a song about it :)
Hope all is well in your life, who ever you are.
KJ
